numb...

in heavy rain day
my heart beats slow
short breath
life leaving my body
yet not resting
still numb
beast devouring
nothing is left
me unsure
nothing else able to endure
empty glass of wine
filled with vodka lime
drop after drop
my anguished existence
a one way street
self-destruction for resistence
my wrists tied up in pain
burning across my inside
nowhere to go
nowere to hide
but in alchool stream ride...